43#

3rd September.
Happy Birthday Asyraf !
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou

:D:D:D

42#

i scream but no one hears me.

sometimes i want to voice out but i dont dare. so i kept silent all the while
to be honest,i feel so hurt and sad.but i dont say a thing.
thanks if i ever run to anyone of you when i needed to spam the heck out of me.
maybe going with the flow isnt such a good idea. if i keep going on with the flow,ill never know my rights and when to fight for it;thinking twice.

so what now ?
theres one thing for sure,i can never let go.and i wont.

41#

it says :

Text Message
From :
Asyraf Sayang

smiling madly~

i don often smile these days. im being even more emo now. screw that la.
if only, i understand and you understand and all understand then i happy, you happy, we happy.

that was just crap. i need some love right now ): (and i am hoping its asyraf heheh)

ILY,A.ILY,AILY,AILY,AILY,AILY,AILY,AILY,AILY,A <3

40#

still waiting.

im happy (: yet sad at the same time which totally doesnt make any sense.
if only........ nahh,i dont wanna have high hopes,it just breaks my spirit down..

HOLYMAMA!

i love Asyraf so so much :D

39#

something's missing.

im back to emo now. i tried not to be but how can i ?
everything i see\hear\know just make me. i dont know what to do im lost
i need someone right now ): but someone isnt there and i dont think someone will ever be


if i sound okay and really happy to you, you dont know me.
imsad.imdepress.imlost.iwannadie.

38#

I said i wouldnt,but i did.

im a failure.
dont shed a tear,but i did.
what the fuck is going on now ? fuck this world.fuck this shit.


im so depress right now i want to overdose sleeping pills and die.
dont worry,i aint that stupid.

37#

its a nice lyric tho its an old song.


Daniel Bedingfield - if your not the one.


If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

36#

Perfection

i dont know what else to do.


screw life.

35#

my cup of tea.

just a random thing.
im so bored. its 5am now, and im still playing warcraft with aby and hockkooi since 1am,demmit.
cant wait for 22ndAugust, Josh coming down. gotta catch up with him.
meehhhaaaa.

OHYEAHBEBEH.
iloveyouAsyraf.

34#

KNOCK YOU DOWN - KERI HILSON feat. NEYO feat. KANYE WEST

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
(As hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

33#

Helyna
E
Love
Y
N
Asyraf.

i pick both and that will never change.
its okay for making me feel bad. cause then,i will know you well.
im happy with what i have now and i never want it to change.

ILY, A.

32#

Karen's angels.

31#

<3

there's something wrong. dont you feel so ?
hmmm. or maybe it was me all the time O:
im changing. i think so. but i better so. ive gotta change.
now im afraid im too stuborn,i couldnt change.
pfft!



Asssyyrrraaaffffffffffff.........hmmmmmm*smiling madly*

30#

oh and btw,

THIS IS PURE PEKCEK-NESS.

and then SPARTA begins.
44 more days to go.

talking bout time,i miss A right now.
oh god why must the time fly so fast?

29#

feeling bad.

DELETED

DELETED

BUT ill do whatever it takes to make things better.

ill try.

Asyrafff, i love you too :D

28#

a step forward.

easy to type and do, hard to say so ?
thats crap. it took me like, almost forever to say out those 3 words T__T
oh well, i did and tried but imma try it again some other time cause i aint satisfied with this

ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOU
ILOVEYOU
so easy to type T__T

A<3

27#

drawing is my passion.

realize how a person can affect your life ? in everything you do. it makes you think twice
it changes you,yourself,and you. how you behave and how you react and also how you live a life

well this person, it does affect on me. i started changing and all else. and im actually quite proud of it. becoming better i meant. but when my parents are away, god know what im doing in and out there *smiles evily* and at the same time i feel bad myself.

and i realize this, i cant keep promises. i break them easily and i feel very bad. (depends what promises) and im sorry. so so sorry and ill try to make it to you okay T_T

oh well. screw me and myself \:

this is what happens when your in love.
hmm,i wonder whats next....

iloveaguystartsfromtheletter A x)

26#

why do i still go emo ?

weird it is,youve heard what ive said and ive heard.....did i?
but why do i still go emo ? TELL ME WHY ! am sick of emo T____T


im dont believe it myself either; A<3

58 more days

25#

emo.

i emo out the whole day \:
especially when my parents are away.
i tried not being emo but wottheheck ?
haii haii >_>
sorry if i ever come without talking and not alive and begs to fetch me back early \:
im really not in a mood to go out and hang with friends. im sorry

its you im thinking of now.imessyou.

60 more days to go.

24# August09

which path ?

i guess now i know why i cant finish on what im starting.
its because the story has no ending,YET.
you left me hanging there.


because the feelings are growing bigger and im missing you even more now.ily,A

23#

its cold.

i dont know what else to do. how now ?
ive quit counter strike already. i just play it to kill time.

never like most people in garena these days. last year was the best ever. really pro players who doesnt hack. missing those legend players \: all quit already. adeh...

im being emo more than i used too. fake smile face people !

i dont know what to do now. how ?

22#

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

said so its hard.

21#

this made my day =3

awww. sweeeet =3

this was by steph O:

and this is my reply O:

i know its a lil cacat but its cute ! :D
imba drawing >_>

keep .... (what sound does bunny makes?) HAHAHHA
rock on babe \m/ !

stephanie <3

20#

Depressions.

i cant finish what im working on ! i cant think at all ! dam ittttt !
ugh. so pissed off with my brains.
mom and dad is going to india for the whole 2 freaking months.
so,what am i suppose to do now ? i already have 1 big problem and this 1 came up too.
screw life !

mom&dad : so what are you gonna do now ?
me : hah. easy. just suicide
dad : i dont want to see my daughter suiciding.i dont want to talk about suiciding and i dont wanna see you cutting yourself. STOP WITH THE SUICIDING,ENOUGH WITH SUICIDING



i want to cry,but why cant i?

19#

Lessons learn.

Life is not about short or long,
Life is about what you make of it.


is this goodbye then ?

18#

alone again i am most,
not remembering where i went lost.

17#

Duhai kekasih pujaan hatiku
Apakah kau memberiku satu arti
Sedikit rasa yang bisa kumengerti
Bukan sumpah atau janji

Buktikanlah bila ada cinta
Setulus hatimu bisa menerima
Sebatas kejujuran yang kau miliki
Bukan sekedar bersama

Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi cinta
Tinggalkan aku
Bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku lupakanlah aku
O... Ho... O... Ho...

Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi cinta
Tinggalkan aku
Bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku lupakanlah aku
Selamanya

16#

stop that emo shi.t

teacher is dam random.

teacher : very... very the... UNSANGKARABLE! (tak sangka + science in english = UN-SANGKA-RABLE)
me : what the hell ? unsangkarable ? LMAO.



Would you even turn to say ?

15#

speechless.

leave me with no words to say.
i wish everything and everyone in this world doesnt exist at all. myself too.
screw god. no offence,im not a god lover.

aby : bodoh bodoh ashley.haha
me : not bodoh la. you la bodoh T_T


give me reasons to prove me wrong

14#

wash me away.

"please let it rain !please let it rain !"

and it did. the whole morning till i reach home then it stopped raining. that actually made my day.


Please bring the Sun back now...

13#

Why is it everytime I try
It always comes back as a lie
I could believe in the words that you say to me
But lately I think I wont agree

What makes the world go by
If you cannot crush my life

What holds you up so high
When you want it all the time

(C/o)
Coz we will be fine
In matter of time
Subject to my mind
As were crossing the line

Directions to see
Perfection to be
A pain of a kind
Always crashing on me

Suffercate, time, matter I'll be fine
Today

And the days they go on and on
As all the time I'm all alone
It never pays me to say that I'm not ok
But you still have time to make fun of me

What makes the world go by
If u cannot crush my life

What holds you up so high
When you want it all the time

(C/o)

And I don't believe
In time we will see
A pain of a kind
Always crashing on me

Suffercate, time, matter I'll be fine

Today...

12#

pocket filled with lies.

ive been lying to myself for too much. ive got to stop lying !
but then,if i stop lying, ill get depress more ?

the truth hurts

11#

D E L E T E D.

Blink182 - i miss you

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight

i messs...

10#

break the wall.

i tried not being emo but it dint work.

lets have a talk but why is it so hard ?

9#

WAKE UP !

"WAKE UP CHIE ! YOUR IN REALITY NOW! WAKE UP"

im trying im trying. its not as easy as it looks ! worst to worst,i aint strong enough to stand on my own.

screw life.

might as well just die laying there.

8#

should i ?

"dumbass!if i were you,ill run after her back!now go!"

emo is the last thing you wanna feel on earth.
especially when you feel that the world is closing down to you and you had no where to run too.
even if you do,it doesnt make a difference because no matter what, the feeling will still be there.


and i guess im one of them.

7#

i was sitting on the floor looking outside and there was 2 girls infront of where im staring at.

zhi : eh you know the girl ar ?
me : *din answer*
zhi : why look so farmiliar 1 ?
me : *din asnwer*
zhi : you know her is it ? she wave at you leh
me : *din asnwer*
zhi : so farmiliar..
me : hah ? what ? you talking to me ?
zhi : duhhh !
me : oh what you said ?
zhi : i said the girl so farmiliar. she know is it ? she wave at you leh
me : oh, who ?
zhi : neh that 1 standing there la. she wave at you leh. and you were looking at her also but you dint react
me : O__O ? she got wave at me ? i wasnt looking at her. my mind was at somewhere else Omg.
zhi : she standing infront your face leh.people wave at you and you staring at people wei wtf
me : eh no no, i wasnt staring at her. i was just.....dei? i daydreaam. i din realize there was people standing there.
zhi : what the fuck ?

6#

iloveaguynameAsyrafcan?

carrying a bag with laptop and accounts texts,notes,workbook is pure torture.
im so tired,i wanna go sleep right now.

Ronan Keating - When you say nothing at all

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

You said it best,
When you say nothing at all

<3

Goodnight Helyna.

Goodnight Asyraf.

5#

i daydream more.

school sucks.

i daydream to much till i dont realize whats happening around me.

4#

cigarette me please.

exams are tomorrow and i haven study a tid bit. i skipped school to study at home today but i dint and i just stoned there. I somehow dont have the mood to study since emo hitted me.
i cant concentrate on anything so screw it.the papers i meant.


maybe because it was you i was thinking all about the whole day ?

3#

i become so numb

honestly,i really cant say how i feel right now.
ive been emo the whole entire day,i feel like crying but i just cant. my tears wouldnt come out.
somethings wrong with me and my brain.i need a check up.


where are you when i need you ?

2#

Your already the voice inside my head, I MISS YOU.

1#

WEAPONS IN THE FORM OF WORDS

OUCH

DON ASK WHY .