23#

its cold.

i dont know what else to do. how now ?
ive quit counter strike already. i just play it to kill time.

never like most people in garena these days. last year was the best ever. really pro players who doesnt hack. missing those legend players \: all quit already. adeh...

im being emo more than i used too. fake smile face people !

i dont know what to do now. how ?

22#

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

said so its hard.

21#

this made my day =3

awww. sweeeet =3

this was by steph O:

and this is my reply O:

i know its a lil cacat but its cute ! :D
imba drawing >_>

keep .... (what sound does bunny makes?) HAHAHHA
rock on babe \m/ !

stephanie <3

20#

Depressions.

i cant finish what im working on ! i cant think at all ! dam ittttt !
ugh. so pissed off with my brains.
mom and dad is going to india for the whole 2 freaking months.
so,what am i suppose to do now ? i already have 1 big problem and this 1 came up too.
screw life !

mom&dad : so what are you gonna do now ?
me : hah. easy. just suicide
dad : i dont want to see my daughter suiciding.i dont want to talk about suiciding and i dont wanna see you cutting yourself. STOP WITH THE SUICIDING,ENOUGH WITH SUICIDING



i want to cry,but why cant i?

19#

Lessons learn.

Life is not about short or long,
Life is about what you make of it.


is this goodbye then ?

18#

alone again i am most,
not remembering where i went lost.

17#

Duhai kekasih pujaan hatiku
Apakah kau memberiku satu arti
Sedikit rasa yang bisa kumengerti
Bukan sumpah atau janji

Buktikanlah bila ada cinta
Setulus hatimu bisa menerima
Sebatas kejujuran yang kau miliki
Bukan sekedar bersama

Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi cinta
Tinggalkan aku
Bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku lupakanlah aku
O... Ho... O... Ho...

Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi cinta
Tinggalkan aku
Bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku lupakanlah aku
Selamanya

16#

stop that emo shi.t

teacher is dam random.

teacher : very... very the... UNSANGKARABLE! (tak sangka + science in english = UN-SANGKA-RABLE)
me : what the hell ? unsangkarable ? LMAO.



Would you even turn to say ?

15#

speechless.

leave me with no words to say.
i wish everything and everyone in this world doesnt exist at all. myself too.
screw god. no offence,im not a god lover.

aby : bodoh bodoh ashley.haha
me : not bodoh la. you la bodoh T_T


give me reasons to prove me wrong

14#

wash me away.

"please let it rain !please let it rain !"

and it did. the whole morning till i reach home then it stopped raining. that actually made my day.


Please bring the Sun back now...

13#

Why is it everytime I try
It always comes back as a lie
I could believe in the words that you say to me
But lately I think I wont agree

What makes the world go by
If you cannot crush my life

What holds you up so high
When you want it all the time

(C/o)
Coz we will be fine
In matter of time
Subject to my mind
As were crossing the line

Directions to see
Perfection to be
A pain of a kind
Always crashing on me

Suffercate, time, matter I'll be fine
Today

And the days they go on and on
As all the time I'm all alone
It never pays me to say that I'm not ok
But you still have time to make fun of me

What makes the world go by
If u cannot crush my life

What holds you up so high
When you want it all the time

(C/o)

And I don't believe
In time we will see
A pain of a kind
Always crashing on me

Suffercate, time, matter I'll be fine

Today...

12#

pocket filled with lies.

ive been lying to myself for too much. ive got to stop lying !
but then,if i stop lying, ill get depress more ?

the truth hurts

11#

D E L E T E D.

Blink182 - i miss you

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders
catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight

i messs...

10#

break the wall.

i tried not being emo but it dint work.

lets have a talk but why is it so hard ?

9#

WAKE UP !

"WAKE UP CHIE ! YOUR IN REALITY NOW! WAKE UP"

im trying im trying. its not as easy as it looks ! worst to worst,i aint strong enough to stand on my own.

screw life.

might as well just die laying there.

8#

should i ?

"dumbass!if i were you,ill run after her back!now go!"

emo is the last thing you wanna feel on earth.
especially when you feel that the world is closing down to you and you had no where to run too.
even if you do,it doesnt make a difference because no matter what, the feeling will still be there.


and i guess im one of them.

7#

i was sitting on the floor looking outside and there was 2 girls infront of where im staring at.

zhi : eh you know the girl ar ?
me : *din answer*
zhi : why look so farmiliar 1 ?
me : *din asnwer*
zhi : you know her is it ? she wave at you leh
me : *din asnwer*
zhi : so farmiliar..
me : hah ? what ? you talking to me ?
zhi : duhhh !
me : oh what you said ?
zhi : i said the girl so farmiliar. she know is it ? she wave at you leh
me : oh, who ?
zhi : neh that 1 standing there la. she wave at you leh. and you were looking at her also but you dint react
me : O__O ? she got wave at me ? i wasnt looking at her. my mind was at somewhere else Omg.
zhi : she standing infront your face leh.people wave at you and you staring at people wei wtf
me : eh no no, i wasnt staring at her. i was just.....dei? i daydreaam. i din realize there was people standing there.
zhi : what the fuck ?

6#

iloveaguynameAsyrafcan?

carrying a bag with laptop and accounts texts,notes,workbook is pure torture.
im so tired,i wanna go sleep right now.

Ronan Keating - When you say nothing at all

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

You said it best,
When you say nothing at all

<3

Goodnight Helyna.

Goodnight Asyraf.

5#

i daydream more.

school sucks.

i daydream to much till i dont realize whats happening around me.

4#

cigarette me please.

exams are tomorrow and i haven study a tid bit. i skipped school to study at home today but i dint and i just stoned there. I somehow dont have the mood to study since emo hitted me.
i cant concentrate on anything so screw it.the papers i meant.


maybe because it was you i was thinking all about the whole day ?

3#

i become so numb

honestly,i really cant say how i feel right now.
ive been emo the whole entire day,i feel like crying but i just cant. my tears wouldnt come out.
somethings wrong with me and my brain.i need a check up.


where are you when i need you ?

2#

Your already the voice inside my head, I MISS YOU.

1#

WEAPONS IN THE FORM OF WORDS

OUCH

DON ASK WHY .